what the bunnies ate

Louise sat next to him in his large, comfortable bed and fed him peanuts.  One by one  she would place them into his cupid mouth as if he were a large, fleshy vending machine that would eject an item after receiving the correct amount of peanuts.

Louise cringed as he lay in her bed, her beautiful, soft $800.00 bed. A bed that took days to select, a bed worth sleeping on the floor for a month, a bed outfitted with carefully selected soft, white sheets…a great bed. One that was worthy of a man better than the one sleeping in it. Didn’t he know that the bed was worth more to her than his sad pound of flesh. “Get out of my bed,” she thought to herself. 

What I'm reading these days...

"In electronic imaging, noise is the presence of unwanted energy fluctuation in the signal.  This energy is not related to the image signal and degrades it."

Ghost Man

John Steinbeck

"I know how you feel and what you go through.  Because I'm not done with it by any means.  The pain comes from breaking the pattern and from nothing else.  You are missing the place you hated to go to but it was a place to go to.  Don't let your mind trick you too much.  Recapture the memory of the thing that drove you out.  That disappears quicker than the other and makes for the unbalance."

I keep promising myself to stop eating at Au Bon Pain, but without success.  In the past 4 months, I've guzzled so much of their coffee and eaten so many terrible croissants...I don't even like to think about it too much. 

Breakfast: tasteless cinnamon raisin bagel with cream cheese washed down by a cup of coffee that I won't bother to describe.

Lunch: Au Bon Pain.  Enough said.  And coffee.  Oh I also found some edamame beans in the work fridge that was the best part of the meal.

Dinner:  Two fingers of Johnny Walker Red with tap water.

All my baking ambitions are thwarted by lack of cooking ware.

Shopping List

Unbleached flour
Organic Eggs
Organic Milk
Anise seeds
Organic Butter
Sourdough Bread
Parchment Paper
Espresso
Livarot Cheese
Parmesan Cheese, shredded
1/2 lb.  Black Forest Ham
1/2 lb.  Swiss Cheese
2 Parmesan cheese and tomato foccacia
Asparagus
Cup of Coffee

Loneliness

Sleeping on the floor.  Your shoulder and back decide they don't want to be together anymore which makes you very, very sick.  And there is no end in sight.